Grief still

Still grieving
The world churns on
Faster widgets
Faster AI
Slowly I
Struggle to explain
Heartless souls laugh
I am too sad!
We have no time
For your miserable pain
"We've heard it all again"
You have no family
To comfort you
All on vacation
From loving you.

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